♥Confession.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Hmm..right now I'm feeling calm so I feel that what I did was kind of wrong..a wee bit =x Coz I'm still not happy..then again, Vino is right..
Angry people talk rubbish!
=x
Heh! So I'm still gonna post my original blog entry..with a dash across the whole thing so those who don't wanna see the angry Hariani talking rubbish then you can skip the blue, dashed words =x
Sick and tired of this fucking feeling. Getting all fucked up. Spouting these fucking words. Commiting fucking sins. I get mad every morning eversince my paper was over.
What the fuck..
Fifth day of anger..pardon the words..I need to let it out..
You know what? They are right. You should always blame yourself..blaming others is like pointing a finger at that person..now look at your hand..your other fingers(except your thumb) is actually pointing back at you..which simply means you're 3 times more responsible for it.
So maybe..just maybe I should change..sleep at 12am (on a fucking holiday) and wake up at 8am (on a fucking holiday)..So as to stop making my lifespan even shorter, 8 hours of sleep per day would do..
Then 8am to midnight, try and figure out ways to entertain myself..that way. I'll have 16 hours of life instead of the current 9hours?
I'm only left with 7 days anyway..oh wow..happy holidays yani..gratz that you have a curfew at your age..hopefully that would make everyone (including me) happy?? Gee I'll try =.=
I'll miss my old, happier life..it was awesome while it lasted..I need to release stress but fasting month starts tomorrow..cant club =/ Oh fuck!
Just leave me alone..I'm still not matured anyway =.=
=x
Up there, when I said I should change, I was sarcastic coz I was damn angry..but below is what I truly feel now =x
Yah angry people talk rubbish..an angry Hariani speaks a whole lot of rubbish..so long winded =x
But anyway yah..the calmer Hariani feels that maybe, just maybe, a change would be good..but I'll really miss my old life..I still remember during one of the holidays when I couldn't sleep..it was like 2+ or 3+ or 4+am..I forgot but it was seriously a time when you can barely find people who are not asleep =x
My eyes were wide open..I put a CD in the player, switched on the stereo and started to groove to the music aka dance like a total idiot at the Living Room..air guitars and stuff >.< It was so fun though I was doing it alone..but hey..what's the imagination for? =p
Ah..those days >.<
Today I woke up 12+pm..great improvement..but I still couldn't sleep immediately..I was so angry that I kept sighing and sighing for god knows how long..I prolly slept at 3+am =x 1+ hours improvement..not bad =x
But you know..at your most 'MADDEST' moment, think of something that's so pleasant and sweet, it totally works as a distraction..
For example Joseph :D Think ok him, *high* then can sleep..
And the best part is when you think so much about someone before you sleep, they are bound to be part of your dream..
AWESOME!! =x
"A little bit longer
And I'll be fine"
:D
HOMG I just saw a Jonas Family photo and I have to let this out.
Denise Mummy
is the luckiest lady ever!!
In the entire planet!!
Coz she has
a WONDERFUL guy as her
husband,
3 HOTTIES as sons
and another CUTIE as a
son..
*faints*
Which girl, got 5 guys around you but still not happy..
Eyy don't get me wrong..I'm not desperate..I know my social circle are mostly girls and 99% of the people in my social circle are younger than me..don't need to be reminded..
But..who cares?? If I'm not bothered then you shouldn't too :D
Audiland.
Completed 3 stages of story mode..currently stuck again coz the next stage is 8key =.=
Ouh by the way "Joe" was online again but he didn't reply me..chey!!~ =x
Cheerio~
Saranghae Minnie Mal
@9:37 PM
